It is this immense black hole that has covered my heart – that has a constant need for problems in order to feed itself with an identity – that has kept me in an almost complete obliviance towards real life, myself and others. The revelation of the inner sun it’s only the first step. The acceptance and re-embodiment of that is the next and all other steps that make a path.
No human can truly be alive until he sees its own dark spot.
If this black hole is not fed from within (inner sun) it will constantly create problems in order to feed itself with the attention it needs. One must always care for this inner child like it would do for the most precious of babies. If this child / black hole ever cries -> it needs attention. Zero drugs, zero food, alcohol, sex, etc. It needs direct care and attention. Finally teaching its owner about true responsibility.
I remember I once saw a movie – I think it was one episode of that series ‘The Outer Limits’ that I was watching in my childhood. The episode was depicting a man that struggled with his alcohol addiction, so he went to an obscure Chinese medicine practitioner of a sort – that told him there is a cure, but he has to be really sure he really wants to quit drinking, because he will not be able to drink ever again. The man said “yes, i’m sure” – and the doctor gave him to drink a certain tea that contained an alive creature inside. This creature would live inside his stomach and would cause severe pain and death if the man would gulp even the sightliest drop. So he was cured by becoming self responsible 🙂 It is similar in a sense. This inner black hole within – although creating so much chaos and pain -> finally teaches one about true care and responsibility. Inner sun is great, but without the proper mental ground to hold it… too much power put in hands too weak is known to have severe effects on the being and the world around. So .. there it is: a simulation where beings can self-learn about care and responsibility, thus understanding what true power really means.