Death, the ultimate divider

Let me put this very simply because I feel this is very important at this moment.
I feel there is something very wrong/bad about physical death in all of its forms (“natural” death, suicide, mass cataclysm, etc).
I feel the only way to “escape the matrix” is by finding a way to revive our soul – ie: remember who we truly are and come back to Life (see the myth of Osiris). I think this can be done, although it is probably the most difficult process we would ever have to go through. I think this is a sort of “lost science” that we have been deliberately kept apart from and made to forget.

Whenever I quiet my mind more deeply I can feel/sense/experience that my current experience, in this waking state, is a sort of state of death. We are dead right now! This is a sort of after life type of experience (I don’t remember all what happened, how we “died” and got here, but I have some sensations/hints). It is even in the word – “waking” life – a wake is a funeral.

I believe almost everything we have been told (starting from childhood) was a lie. We were lied about everything, starting from the language that we learned and then the social customs, religious rites, history, biology, geography, what the world is, what we are, etc. And especially about death! Both religion and spirituality trying to convince us death is natural! That we have to die to get to heaven, find union with god, and nowadays so many truther spiritual channels basically saying that we have to die.. to get liberated from the matrix. Why do I need to die.. to remember who I am? Why do I need to die.. to come back to Life?

I believe that if we go once again through physical death it might make our soul even more dead! And I believe that.. this might be how we got as amnesiac as we currently are! With each physical death, our soul might downgrade more and more, being divided from its integral essence, forgetting its true nature, rather than becoming more and more whole and evolved.. as they say in the hindu and other spiritual traditions.

I feel that the work that has to be done.. has to be done while we are here in these physical bodies. I feel this physical experience contains something very important in it, a deep value and secret, if we learn to use it correctly.